I've been at home all day today, my final day of rest, I was feeling a little flu-ish and I needed to catch up on all the school work I missed as well... ahhhh shoot DX...
... Soooooooo i decided to go through some old pictures and see how Ive changed through time, I thought it would be an interesting journey and decided to share it with you haha! (im too lazy to make sure these are perfect perfect in sizing....meh)
the turn of the century, as well as my 13th birthday and my 90s stylin house, jigga what!(2000)
me in art high school making mosaics...im the cool kid with the fro in bleu (2005)
Have you noticed that you go through certain changes at certain ages?
When you turn 13 you think your life will be awesome (which 12-14 for me was just a totally BUST it was not as cool as pepper ann AT ALL!) You think when you turn 16 you’ll finally look as hot as everyone on Dawson’s Creek but it turns out you are still dorky looking. 18 rolls around and you’re “an adult” but for most of us we are still living under out parents wing at that age but going off to school. 21 rolls around and you can drink…legally, in the US that is, and not have guilt or shame quickly chase you after a sip or two. But then that eventually dies down in hype. Finally, after 21…the “big birthday’s” don’t really show up again until you’re the big 30 then you’re 1/3 of being dead.
Well now I am 23…
(I’m sure maybe some of you thought I was older…maybe because my brother is 26 and we are like BFF so I get along with more people in their late 20’s early 30’s because we have the same circle of friends growing up. People actually still think we are twins but that’s okay, we find it a great conversation starter…but I digress…)
...I feel like the world is starting to finally come alive. I no longer feel like I am ashamed of my looks or iniquities, nor am I as shy as I used to be. I don’t feel weird for not following the crowd for not being like everyone else or for being WEIRD, yes WEIRD, and I have never been prouder!
I feel like I am finally starting to be “a woman” (that always sounds lame to say out loud) and that I am coming into my own. I got back into dancing which is great and I have been hitting up the auditions like a fiend with NO SHAME OR FEAR of “what if they don’t like me” I feel like I wasted so much of my life being a people pleaser. Wondering if “they” will like me, trying not to stand out too much, or just be myself. But now, I’m like who cares!
This year I have had so many firsts, my friend real apartment! My first real role in a feature film! My real first trip out the country! I just feel like life is starting to shape up for me.
Who knows what’s to come for m this year. I am backpacking through Europe in the summer, and also have some other great things lined up such as I JUST GOT A ROLE IN AN OFF BROADWAY PLAY, and I also just got promoted to supervisor at the graphic design company I work for!
I feel like I am finally starting to be me, and whether she’s gal, a hipster, Black, French, tall, hippy, crushes on boys with big noses, sensitive and a dreamer, whatever she is, I am glad to finally be okay to just be her....♥
I had another post I was going to lay upon you about my shopping excursion in the big city, however, tmobile is not letting me get my pictures so you'll see it tomorrow luvs!
I'll just make this one a quicke, first of all, I want to give a big thanks to Lissy for giving me this award!
The instruction are: 1. Give a top 10 list of the things that makes you happy. 2. Give a top 5 list of trivias about yourself. 3. Share the award with only 5 persons and ask them to do the same thing. :) 4. Link the blogs you choose and link the blog of the person awarded you.
2.My family& Panda and the kitties panda rescues!! (i know this is like three but :P)
3. BEARDS ah Schwartzman....
4. Indie Films at the Landmark or Music Box Theatre three faves: brick, royal tenenbaums, and away we go.
5. Dark Haired boys in suits add a pompadour and IM SOLD (and yes if your curious Panda does rock a pompadour...heh) tee hee!!! (and this is obviously NOT panda...sorry panda, i luvs uuuuu!)
6. Fashion God Save the McQueen
7. Chicago Comics & Reading comics
local,pirates of coney island, american virgin, and kimi ni todoke to name a few....
8. Earwax Cafe the menus are drawn by dan clowes and chris ware!!! 9. Tv, i like tv, (conan, seinfield, simpsons) I really like Target commercials..there so well made (TAKE THAT WALMART)
10. Video game marathons! i love river city ransom!! and i'm so excited to play tatsunoko vs capcom!!! Five Factoids about moi:
1. I love listening to my ipod during commutes and imagine mini films that go along with them
2. I always wanted to be a roller derby girl, but i fear paralyzation, there is this
3. despite every other girl in the world, I'm not attracted to micheal cera, and I'm tired of his character, it won't be cute when he's 30, he's no steve buscemi...
4. I'm a born again trekky, I used to be into star wars because of my dad, until I got the gospel of the federation and realized that it was star trek i loved all along. Me and my mom watch the shows all the time.
5. I try to win a ufo catcher doll every time i visit a new place (that has one) and if they have ms pac-man, ITS SO ON
And I tag (sorry if your double tagged it just means your so special) abby tutti Jenny Leanne Jen
